What are your goals?
My ego could really use a boost," what would you expect her to say? If you're lucky, she'll take it as a joke. If not, she's likely to think you're nuts. Now what if you walk up to the same woman and say, "hey, you look like someone I'd like to know better. Let's spend some time together and see if we have something to share." My guess is you'd at least get her interest. But we aren't going to say that out loud. We're going to come from a place inside that speaks those words through our actions, our body language, our expression, our very being. If you just say the words, she might not believe them. If you live the words, if you embody them, then there will be no convincing to do. It will be truth, and she will pick up on that truth the more she is with you. That's powerful stuff.
So back to our question, why do you want the outcome you've pictured? What will it do, what will it mean, why is it important? You need to answer these very important questions for yourself. So let's do that right now, while we're on a roll. Set down the book again-and I do hope you're setting it down in a nice clean spot-and picture your ideal outcome again.
Then ask yourself, "what will I have if! make this come true, why is this important to me?" Do it now.
Ok, that was actually a tough one. I should have warned you. Sorry about that. Oh well. You may not have come up with The Definitive Answer, but hopefully it got you thinking about what it is you really want and why. Feel free to come back to this from time to time. Your answer might change, and that's fine. We aren't attaching to one answer or one reason, or even one ideal outcome. All of this stuff can change over time. The point is to have an idea of what you want now, and to work on that now. If it changes later, well, you'll deal with that later. That's life. All you have to do is work on the present, and let the "future you" worry about the future. Sound good?
And by the way, you might find your mind drifting back to your ideal image and your reason for wanting it during meditation. That's fine, let it. Spend a little time drifting around there, and then after you've chewed it over, get back to counting your breaths.
Sometimes during meditation important stuff comes up, and it's ok to deal with that stuff before you get back to meditating. It's all part of the process.